“Find love in anything or anyone and breathe it in and then breathe that love back out.”
This is the message that I wrote to my friends one night as I was thinking, thinking, thinking: as most introverts do. Introverts are thinkers. It’s been a proven fact. However, in what ways do we think? I think with words.
I am a writer. What I love to do with my time is to figure out the most interesting way to configure words and utilize them to create the most intricate of stories. Most of them in the form of poetry. I am just leaning into the short story component to grow my skills. I eventually want to write a novel. I scan the hundreds of books at bookstores and think to myself, “I want to write a book.” I promise myself as a writer that I will write for the sake of writing. Not because it will make me famous or rich or even become a career, but because I love to write. When I recently discovered author Elizabeth Gilbert I watched her Ted Talk and was moved to tears. She felt like a kindred Spirit. I devoured her memoir Eat, Pray, Love, and I am now on to her most recent novel, “The Signature of All Things”.
It’s taken me a lot of soul searching and going through a long year of depression to get to where I am now. I never really knew who I was until I found writing. When I found that I like to be by myself with a pen, paper, a thesaurus and a dictionary I felt at peace. I think the dilemma comes up for a lot of introverts because we feel alienated, the black sheep or pushed to be more extroverted. I pull from my own experience growing up with an extroverted mother and searching to find what I love to do and not what other people thought I should love to do. The proof for me is the passion that came through and allowed me to move through the depression. We introverts carry a heavy burned at times but we are not weak. For me, being fiercely loyal to who I am as an introvert allowed me to discover something that I love so much. And it has given me a way to express all the feelings going on inside of my head and heart resulting in a new sense of balance.
Many other introverts think the same way as I do – with words. However, many others think with pictures, with numbers, with sound, with counseling, with science. My passion – our passion – is as big and able as an extroverts booming personality. I want to say this on behalf of introverts everywhere: We are not boring hermits, nor shy speechless small people that have no presence. We have our own power that comes out in different ways. And if it means writing late into the night alone with only the light from the computer screen glaring I’m willing to lose some sleep over it.